Thoughts as the year goes on...

Tonight I'm sitting here at a different computer. My computer crashed last week. It is currently in the shop. We're going to have it back this weekend, but that puts all of my business plans on hold for another week. It is a set back that we wish we could have avoided. We had high asperations for this project, we still do, but it seems that we'll have to wait.

I find myself thinking about many things lately. My perception of things has altered somewhat over the past couple years. I'd like to think I've become more "down to earth" as a result of all of this change. However, some might think that I've become increasingly lofty in my thinking which would be quite the contrary to how I see it.

Interestingly enough I was sitting down with our local study group when I realized just how different my view of the world has become.

I used to be very nature based in my spirituality. I was learning and I tried to ascribe to a more shamanic and wicca based spritual approach to life. However, I have come to find that this no longer suits my personal connection with spiritual entities and it doesn't allow me the tools that I need to work through the spiritual issues that have been set before me.

My view of divinity has shifted from a "god" & "goddess" view to more of divinity being a universal energy that flows in all things. It is a more connected approach.

Point of fact, I have never been comfortable with asking a diety to intercede on my behalf. I don't like the idea of my fate being at the hands of others, even if they are considered of divine origin. However, I have not quite mastered how I am supposed to acheive a state of being that would allow me to act on my own behalf.

Do not mistake me. I see divine energy in all things. I feel it and I know that it is there to be tapped into and communicated with. However, I find myself somewhat perplexed by many things lately. For me it leads to a more spiritual approach, perhaps a more metaphysical one pertaining to the concept of transcendence or ascention rather than that of a simple passing. It seems to me that there is more to this life and that we should be striving for more. Perhaps seeking to attain some sort of perfection in and of our own person.

Or perhaps I'm just raving mad. Either way it is food for thought tonight and I'm sure that it will be lingering on for many weeks and months to come. It is an issue that is not easily resolved after all.